Tuesday, March 23, 2010

... Life was so much easier, when our clothes didn't match and sweet talking girls were all you need to put a smile on a girl's face...

Okay, you ever go on the subways or just even walk on the streets and you see guys sagging their jeans? Okay, I don't know about everyone else and i can only speaks for myself. Let me be the first to tell you that i think it's disgusting. I know that fitted is the way to go these days and skinny or straight jeans are in style, BUT COME ON! I mean, I'm a guy myself and i don't need to see your boxers. Pause.! But seriously, if you're going fitted, wear your jeans right and don't sagged them. Fine you're trying to be like LIL WAYNE, but stop swagger jacking his style. Fine your own way to dress and make it look neat. Stop trying to show everyone your briefs.

Then there's the issue about being a label whore. Alright, we all love name brand and have expensive taste in fashion. I don't get this at all because a lot of people these days are dead broke, but they still go to expensive stores and buy expensive Gucci or LV. Even though it looks like you're rocking your shit proper and look expensive, but inside your wallet you're broke! I mean, if that's your style, hey go ahead and show off what you got. When it comes to me, I do wear expensive name brand clothes, but i have my limits. Remember, it's not how much you got to make you stand out in the fashion world because you can throw on some H&M clothes and you'll get attention, only if you know how to wear it right. Lesson to this is, don't show off and let everyone know you have money. Just be simple and let it be tasteful. You don't have to be all out for someone to notice you. It's all about how you know how to put it together that makes you stand out.

Seems like the Jordan Phase is starting to die down and it seems like Dunks, or other type of sneakers are in. I'm sure anyone who used to be sneaker head or is still is a sneaker head will agree with me on this. What happen to the early wake up calls and standing few hours online for a pair of released Jordan's? It used to be about , who had the freshest Jordan's or sneaker on and now it died down. Now they're fusing Air Jordan's with Air Force Ones. Okay, I'm not a fan of this at all because it ruins the legacy and the classic of the shoes. Let me be the first of many to say, I'm DISAPPOINTED IN JORDAN BRAND.

Lastly, fashion styles these days has changed. Everyone has gone fitted and is trying to look proper and neat. Back then, jerseys to baggy jeans and baggy shirts were in style. Now its all about the fitted jeans and the fitted shirts. I guess everything got complicated now because back then, if someone saw you in skinny jeans and a fitted shirt, you would get made fun of and they will call harsh uncalled for names. Now, they complement you on how you put your style together. Fashion has changed over time and well, this is just the beginning. I kinda missed the baggy days because it made me feel like i was once a teenager without any mind of responsibility. Now it's all about responsibilities and being focus on everything you do.
I guess, do what you do for your benefit?

Life was so much easier, when our clothes didn't match and sweet talking girls were all you need to put a smile on a girl's face.
Things changed and of course people changed... Damns.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Complicated? Takes Time.

I never really took time to really understand a girl or how a girl thinks. I mean, I think to my view, every girl I meet is the same but different story to tell. I'm not a picky guy when it comes to girls, but I look for the more simple and basic things in a girl that will keep me interested. But what happens, when some one out of the ordinary, comes along and prove you wrong in you theory that every girl is the same? You start to realize, " Hey she must be different, let me take time to know her and her find out what she's all about." At first, you don't pay anyone a mind of attention because you're just getting to know them. Then, the more you talk to that person, you start to think differently about them. You start to wonder " Wow, is my theory about every girl are liars and the same wrong? Is this the girl whose finally going to change my perception towards a girl?" Before you know it, someone came along and did the impossible, she proved your theory wrong.

What happen when a girl say " I'm to difficult and complicated for you to understand?" If you really believed that you can understand her somehow, someway, don't give up. You get to know someone and hey, that person maybe interesting. You meet a new friend and maybe you two will develop a deep friendship. You might not know this now, but that person can be quite important to you in your life then you know it. So, why not just keep talking and finding out what they're all about. You might be surprised what you get out of this.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

... Sometimes A text message is all You need..

Even when things aren't okay, a text message is all you need to let you know everything is alright. It doesn't have to be much, but to see the one person you think of most texting you, it feels good. It puts a smile on your face. It lets you know, the person is thinking about you. Every minute you're checking your phone to see if you have any missed messages or calls. When your phone vibrates or ring, you're disappointed that it's not that person you want to text you or call you. A text message means a lot, even if it's a simple hello.

When you're out having fun and hanging with your friends or family, you still think about that person. It's like your mind drifts off when you think about someone a lot. Knowing you have limits, texting someone a lot can mean, you're just annoying or it can mean you absolutely miss that person and it bothers you a lot. Hoping he or she feels the same way about you, you text them anyways. When you do get that message, you start to smile. You start to feel good that he or she took time out on whatever they're doing to text you back.

Even when you're laying in bed, you hold on to your phone just wondering if he or she will ever text you goodnight. Even when you fall asleep, when you feel the vibration on your phone and it's that person texting you, no matter how tired you're, you start to smile and feel a lot of energy. A text message goes a long way and once you get a message, you save it in your inbox. When you start to think about that person, you read all text messages between the two of you. You want something just simple and even if other people brings out the smile in you, there's only one person you want to make you simile. As simple as this seems, sometimes it doesn't usually turns out the way you want.

And when you finally received a text message from that person, he or she already made your day and your night is complete.

My 27 lines

Now picture this, it's me and you.
Like Kodak, we make the perfect picture.
Free your mind, make me your issue.
I Promise to wipe your tears, I can be your tissue.
Let me be the one to get to know you.
I won't disappoint, let me show you the world.
Be the man who understands.
Be the one to hold your small little hands.
Let me be the giant to protect you.
Like dip and dots, let me be the one to connect you.
Your beauty is all I see, Can you believe me?
I'm in to you, can you please see the man in me?
You're the color i see, the others are black and white.
Let me be the one to turn you darkness in to light.
Hold you and talked to you until the morning is right.
I can be in the world with a thousand models,
You're all i see and the one i want in my sight.
Give you support , when you heart is set on something.
You're my dream, You make my nights wonderful.
You make everything so clear,
Can i please be the one to have you near?
Can I be the guy, who will learn to love you instantly?
Can you be the girl, I've been waiting to find differently?
You're beautiful to me.
You're my dream that i waited to come true.
At the start of all this from the beginning and now the end,
It's just me and you.

Friday, March 19, 2010

... Every Minute, Someone's thinking about You...

After getting off work, i decided to take the long way down Broadway to walk to Canal street, where i would catch the J train to go home. It was nice a beautiful night. Especially walking down Soho and the weather is around 50 degrees, it feels good just to walk down Soho and see the city so alive with smiling people. After reaching Broome street, I noticed this girl walking my way. I could tell she was pretty, even though it was night out. As she walked pass me, we made eye contact with that little half of smile and her perfume smelled really good. So i looked back, i saw a scarf on the floor, so i walked up to her and said " Hey is this yours?" She was like " OmgGosh, thank you so much." I told her have a goodnight and walked the other way with a smile. LOL of course she smiled too and we kept looking back at each other for a couple of seconds and then i crossed the street. But wow, she was cute. I mean I didn't want to get her number or start a conversation or something because she probably has so much guys hitting on her throughout the whole day and she must be just whatever by it. It's just best sometimes to just smile and go on with your day. I don't know, but i felt like someone already made my night and i didn't want anyone to try to replace her, so i left it at that.

After realizing a lot things, I've learn things takes time for it to work. I stand by what i say and i don't regret it, which is a good thing sometimes. Sometimes when you're having such a terrible day, you think about that person. Knowing a call or any kind of contact would just make your day. Instead of disturbing someone on their busy schedule, you try not to think about them because it would want you to contact that person. So you go on with your day as planned and you try to get as much of work done as possible. Knowing your boss is breathing on top of you, you do what you need to do until your work day is over. But even when you're concentrated so much on your work, you think about someone sometimes.

"When things aren't the same, you regret your wrong doings and you kick yourself on what you said before" Sometimes, you're just like, " Wow, I wonder how's her day going and is she thinking of me too?" But you try not to text her or call her because again, you know she's busy so you wait it out. You play it easy and you try to just go on with your day and do what you need to do to benefit yourself. You can stop yourself from thinking of that person by just keeping yourself busy and occupied every minute throughout the whole day. Knowing you, you probably will just be like "fuck it, let me go text her because I miss her so much" Sometimes, you can't do that because it gets annoying sometimes.

I don't care who you're, when a person tells you he or she misses you, you start to think about that person and if you're interested you smile a bit and continue on with your schedule. It's nice to be miss by someone sometimes because it gives you that feeling that you're being missed by someone rather than no one. Every minute, someone is thinking about you and whether you choose to acknowledge that person, thats all on your part. Just know, it takes a lot for someone to tell you that they think about you. Even if you don't feel the same, try to understand how you make them feel inside. They adore you as a whole because of this.

"Never give more, unless you know if the person feels the same" You don't want to get hurt by someone that's not in to you. Yeah, its up to you if you decide to take a risk on someone, but know that there are certain limits and line you don't cross. Try not to go overboard with the way you feel, but treat them a little more special than others. You don't want them to get annoyed of you and your feelings because for all the guys out there, you don't want to sound soft. Yes there's always one girl out there like i said before, she'll make you feel like you're floating on air. Limit yourself on things to say and if things doesn't go your way, it's always the best decision to be friends.

Just know, you do have a life of your own and when you find yourself missing someone just know it's a good feeling. You might not be smiling because the person doesn't feel the same for you, but understand everyone has their own feelings and they don't see you like that. Don't be harsh and act like a total asshole towards someone because they don't feel the same way you do. Be their friend and hey, you might grown to be close with them. The best part of all this, you get to know someone and don't rush things. Let time take it course and if drives you crazy of thinking about that person, take a minute to think why you miss that person so much. You'll learn from your experience, missing someone has limits and you don't want to say things you'll regret. Do what you need to do and eventually someone you meet in the future will feel the same way you do and miss you too.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

..And I'll see You when You make it through..

After understanding about why thing's don't fall in to place like the way it should, thing's just takes time for it to fall slowly. I always wonder why two people always go their separate ways and still remain good friends down the road. Then i realized something, when a relationship ends, you don't want anything bad for that person and even though, you can't be friends now, you'll see each other down the road. But if the relationship ended bad, shouldn't you hate the person with every hatred in your heart? NO because life is to precious and having a hatred toward someone doesn't seem right. Even if the person do you wrong, believe in karma and learn not to hold hatred in your heart.

Sometimes when you're so into that person, you just want them to do good. Even if the person doesn't have time for you, you wished them the best of luck in the future and hope that they turn out well. You hate when you care about someone and the person doesn't care for you. You hope that one day, the person you care so much would open their eyes and realize it was you all along that went through good and bad times, when they needed someone by their side. Sometimes, they realized it too late and you've already moved on. That's when regrets comes in to play, but even with everything you and the other person went though, you wish them nothing but the best in their future.

Once close friends and now distances from each other, you hope they're well with whatever they do. A true friend doesn't turn their back on real friends. Be careful who you choose to become close friends with because you don't want them to backstab you at the end. Just remember, holding grudges towards someone will get you nowhere. Remember to live Life peaceful because its too precious to even waste. If you can avoid heartaches and pain, avoid it because it will hurt you the most.

"And i'll see you when you make it through" Remember, if someone you like or care a lot for, Please try to understand what they're going through now. Give yourself a break and let the person figure out their problems if they don't want you to go through it with them. You did the best you can do and now just go on with your business. Down the road, you might bump in to the person on the streets or whatever after loosing contact for so many years. You'll wave, the person would smile and you two will have a catchup lunch. After everything, let someone you care about be free and focus on what they need to do. Don't be selfish and hold them back because you want them to stay with you. And even if things doesn't turn out the way it should, be happy it was once yours.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

..... And that's when you learn to let Go..

Sometimes situation doesn't turned out the way you want, but just be glad you went through it and it's a lesson you'll take to the next one. You shouldn't always stress something that you know in your heart, you gave 110% to. After my experience with relationships, breakups and just seeing couples on the train in love, you wonder sometimes. People always say, " I want what they have" Maybe, it's not time for you to find that one person yet. Date around and get to know someone. You never know what you get out of it by doing the most simplest thing, which is being yourself.

When things go wrong, don't blame yourself for the mishap. If you know you didn't do anything wrong, stop beating yourself and telling yourself you did something. Sometimes, its always the other person and you don't need to stress it. You have your own life to worry about and that's the most important thing if you're still young. Priorities, responsibilities and your dreams comes first. Try to block the other things that matters less and deal with it when you have time. Remember, if you try to balance a lot at the same time, you bound to mess up and instead of going one step forward, you're taking one step back. Give your self time to understand what's best for you now and even though you want something to happen, the timing isn't always right. Let time take it's course and it always plays out for the better.

"When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to, But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to Even though this might bruise you,Let it burn.." There's a little Usher for you HAHA. But understand when thing's aren't right and you feel like its so much that you can handle, let it go. They say that "it's always tough to say goodbye to something, when in your heart you know that it's worth the time and the effort." Let yourself be free and the most important of all, learn to be selfish when you know something is right. Trust your heart and judgements and know that it won't do you wrong. When you give everything in something and you try everything to make the situation better, find another way to do it. If situations still doesn't work out and you starting to stress, that's when you learn to let go. You might be down and wish that things were better, but just let it be. It's not your fault.

Everything in life is worth a try. Even if it's situation like hard work in life or even love, you need to dedicate time for it to work out the way you want. Take baby steps and then keep going. It's like climbing a ladder, you can't reach the top by skipping steps because everything takes time for it to work. Be your own person and don't let failure come in a way of you being the person you want to be.

"If You love something. let it go and if comes back to you, you know it's Yours" It's pretty accurate. If a person you love so much and you know in your heart that it's not time for you and that person to be together, let that person go. Don't be selfish and be in a relationship, when you know it's unfair to both. It might make you go insane and the beginning, but just know it's for the best. Sometimes the hardest part in life isn't letting the person free, but having the courage to do so. Just know, you did the right thing and things will work out for the better.

Everything you do in life itself is about taking a risk. You might not like the outcome of it, but at least you took a risk in something you truly believed in. Don't ever hesitate on something when you trust your heart in. Give it a time to marinate.
The best part of all, you need to be happy with your decisions. Don't second guess yourself because then you'll be doubting yourself. Believe in your philosophy and things will eventually work out.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

March 23. 2003

Midterms will exhaust yOU. But I'm fine for some reason LOL. ANYWAYS, LOL, after looking at my old high school notebook, I've found a song a wrote while I was a junior in high school. I think me and my friend made up a beat up for this, but never really did anything with it. SO , care to read d=]

Memory

Now I never thought I'll be doing this,
Knowing I'm Not used to this.
I never meant for it to be like this,
So this is how it's going to be, I'm sorry.
Please Listen..

We was two young teens, anxious to fall in love.
Holding hands, kissing, telling each other,
"Baby, you're all I'm thinking of"
I was Sixteen, You're fifteen.
A relationship was just what it seems.
Walking down the hallways at school,
People would be so jealous of us.
Look at them, There love is so lust.
But whatever they say, Nothing was better than us.
Seems if we were living a dream, everything marvelous.
And I knew you had doubts, But it was just the two of us.
I told you, take my hand and let me show you.
Let me be the one to hold you and grow with you.
You had your smile, But you believed my words.
And in your eyes, you found the perfect guy in this world.
Still you were negative, but i told you this is the plan,
Close your eyes, come forward and take my hand.
And let me show you.

Chorus( LOL I NEVER FINISHED THIS PART, sorry)

From, text messages to late night phone talks.
From walking in the winter cold, to summer beach walks.
And everything seems so perfect.
And everything you felt, i felted.
On a hot day, when you melt, I melted.
You had your insecurity,
But i was the first one you trusted.
Every fantasy you had, we did it.
Putting in hours, this relation was built to work.
And you wanted me, I wanted you.
You told me, "Boy, I want you to be my first"
We'll never forget that night.
While you were enjoying it, you said it hurt.
So I held you closer and everything was perfect.
I was your everything and i was the one you expect.
Every argument we'd had, we were able to talk it out.
Instead of ignoring each other, we stabled it out.
You had your doubts and I told you.
"baby take my hand and let me show you."

(Chorus)

We're looking back, look what two people had created.
Overcome everything, even when people hated.
Faithful to each other, a lover never cheated.
Just two people, when love is all we've ever need it
Now senior year, we was about to graduate.
Everything that seem so well,
Adoring each other in every way.
I'm off to Buffalo, You're off to California.
We promised to write letters,
I said "Baby, I'll missed ya"
We both new everything was going to change.
Our love was the chapter,
we didn't want to turn the page.
A relationship too good to be true.
And overtime, our friendship grew.
I became your best friend, You've became mine.
You was my art, i was your design.
We knew this was it, we knew we had little time.
Prom time, I was Your Prom date.
We danced all night, And stayed up late.
We're just two couple staring at the moonlight.
Telling each other, everything is going to be alright...

(Chorus)

I was your king, You were my queen.
Didn't let anyone or anything come in between.
Inside of me, I knew that i fell deeply in love.
I knew every time we kissed and hug.
But A friend ship so rare develop.
I fell in love with a friend,
I Knew our love , it was time to be up.
So i called you because we were heading off.
I sat you down and said " Baby, I love you
with every part of me, But"
She stopped me and kissed me.
She said " Please don't say it because
i don't believe its time"
"If you love me this much, don't let me go,
i don't want to pay this no mind"
I had to be strong and knew i done nothing wrong.
But I told her,
"I know you don't agree with me on this,
But it something you and I need this"
" I've been your first love, you've been mine
And it something , let course takes it time.
And If you love something, let it free and it comes
back to you, you know it's yours"
ANd i never met to say these lines of words.
But i can't help the fact, i have to let you go.
U will understand later, my feeling i can't let it show.
When you tear drops, I can't kiss it.
I'll let it drop, because knowing me, I'll miss it."
As i turned around and walked away,
I slowly came back and kissed her eyes.
I told her " Baby, this is my goodbye"

(chorus) fade...

Monday, March 15, 2010

Guys do stupid things, when he's head over heels over a girl..

I'll be the first one to tell you that, I believe there's always one girl that will get my attention. I think that's with all guys. There's always that one girl, who will make you do stupid things because you're trying to impress her. But, We forget to be ourselves and take it one step at a time. The feeling you get when you find someone whose different in every way and unique. It's like she's the only girl in color you see and the rest is in black and white. You brag to your friends and say " I finally found someone, whose surpasses every girl, I've ever met" But you messed it up by doing stupid things and rushing things, when everything should be taken slowly. When all you want is to see that gorgeous smile on her face everyday and you text them every morning and say "Have a wonderful day" You don't have to do it, but you do it anyways to show her you care.

Every minute you're thinking about her and just wondering what's she's doing. You try to play it safe and not think about her because you don't want to become obsessive. I mean, I guess the best way is try to relax and let time take it course. Even when you see her talking to another guy, you get a little jealous because you're afraid another guy is going to charm her away. You can avoid this by just being yourself. If the girl of your interest feels the same you do, she won't mind if the other guy is trying to talk to her and don't pay attention to that. If she likes you enough, she won't try to get with the other guy. The other guy is probably talking out of his ass. Remember, it's only conversation and it's not like she's going to sleep with him.

If you have a lame game and you can't charm her with your words, charm her with your personality. It's always a positive thing to have both by your side. Don't be such a fat ass and eat up everything. I mean you can, but work it off. Go out and run or go to the gym and burn the calories you just put in your body. Remember, girls want a guy whose fit, looks good and cares about his body and health.

Sometimes when you're so into that person, you forget all about sex. Yes guys, you forget all about sex. Yes you have two heads, but try to use your head up here and not down there. Listen to what she has to say and try to understand her words. Sometimes, we do very stupid things and at the end of it, we're wondering why we said it or why we did it.

God didn't make us perfect and for some reason, we'll never understand how a girl feels. We're not them but, the only thing we can do is try to relate to them. Don't get mad if a girl doesn't respond to your messages. If she's in to you, she'll respond. She does have her own life to take care of. Ms independent is what every guy want, so don't be so mad if she doesn't respond to you. Giver her time, keep busy and she'll respond sooner or later. The best part about all this, enjoy that feeling because its the most wonderful feeling, you'll ever have.

Those who messed up on their chances on someone they truly like, find a way to make her smile and talk to her as a friend. Girls want someone who they can feel comfortable with. Be her friend and get to know her. Yes we do stupid things and yes we're built to mess up every time, but we just need to learn from it. We do stupid things and say things because, we don't think. That's when you know she's SOMETHING.

Remember Fellas, We get one shot, Just one shot to leave a footprint. Mess it up and another shot is slim to none.
Good Luck Fellas

Hey I'm not perfect, I'm just an ordinary guy whose motive is to understand someone. I said things and rush them because i don' think sometimes.. Yes Im a guy. It's hard to get back to the way it was because of one mistake. You can say, this is what a girl makes you do, when you think about her a lot. I've learned, let a girl breathe, let time take it toll and let everything flow. Don't rush things. I know that now. As least I can say that I'm a man and I accept all my careless mistakes and hope that i make smarter decisions from now on. The hardest part is trying to understand someone and I know I'm not favored in this category. I know the odds are against me, but if i truly believe I can do it, I will do it.

THIS IS ME..

Hmmm... Sometimes i wonder about a lot of things. I know I stressed to be perfect and i know that I'm not even close to ever being perfect. I could say at this point in my life, this is where i want to be. I've been given opportunity to make things better than before and I'm taking advantage of it. I looked back at my life 5 years ago and it makes me think how i far i've come. After graduating from high school, i really didn't know what i want to do with my life. Didn't even know what i want to major in. I fucked up so much in college that it made me learn so much about myself. I hated myself a few years back and it took me a long time to even love myself. So fast forward till now. I'm 23 years old and about to turn 24 in about a month. Another year and a half and i'll be done with college and well thats when the real world begin. That's when my career path starts. I created this blog to free my mind about any thought. Why don't i just keep a journal? I do have one, but i spent half of the time on my laptop so, this is something to keep me on track. Follow me through, and read my thoughts about anything i write about. You can disagree about a lot of things, but it's me whose writing and letting my thoughts out. SO, here i go.